Friday, May 15, 2009

End of days.

The vet I saw today told me that we needed to make the final decision about Scooter soon. She thinks he's suffering.

In the past, I could tell for sure they were suffering. I knew it was time with both April and Ripper. I knew it was time for Brownie and Pixel. I haven't known it was time for Scooter.

Have I been blinded by my own needs? I'm not ready to let him go, even though I tell myself I am.

No matter what, I couldn't make that decision today at a time when Keith couldn't be there. Except for Ripper, we've both been there for our pets at the end. I knew Keith would have to be there with him.

I've made the decision. I just need to give Keith a little time for it too. I'll call the vet tomorrow to make the appointment for early next week. That gives us some time to say good-bye, and spoil him even more rotten, if that's possible.


The Chickengoddess said...

I'm so sorry for you and Scooter. This is the hardest and worst part of having a pet in your family. I have always had a tough time knowing when it was that time and I always second guess myself, but we can all only do our best. I know you've done right by Scooter, and I just wanted you to know everyone here at the Palais de Poulet is thinking of you all.

Shari said...

My heart hurts for you, Eve. Just know you are an excellent mom to all your babies. If you want to talk about it, please call me, ok? 404-307-1840

Kim said...

Honey, I'm so sorry. Hugs and love to you all.

Janice in GA said...

Aw crap. It's so hard to let them go. No matter how long we have with them, it's never long enough.